Thanksgiving
Well, another year has gone by from the last time I went west for the Holiday. Last year thanksgiving was much less of a family affair than before. I was OK with that. This year, I’m around more family, but was feeling more lonely than in a long time.
For a very long time I never understood why I wasn’t comfortable around people. I always had a fear of being rejected, and mocked, for things I said. When your mind is filled with thoughts, one recurring thought is that you can’t share what you think and feel with others. Yesterday, all of that came to a head.
But, sitting here now amongst family, and just watching everyone enjoy themselves, I remember what I am thankful for. I’m thankful that even if I can’t express myself all of the time to other people, I can enjoy their company. Even if I have a hard time meeting new people, I know that I do, and that I just need to push ahead. Rejection is a part of life, and being able to handle it is an important skill.
I’m thankful for friends, even if sometimes they don’t “get it”. Even when I’m hurt by them sometimes.
I’m thankful for being able to read and learn new things.
I’m thankful for a new job starting next week.
I’m thankful for a new apartment.
I’m thankful for a good life.
I’m thankful for all of the small things that go right every day,
and I’m also thankful for those thing that don’t go right, they allow me to learn, and grow.
So, Happy Day of Giving Thanks. I hope you all are able to smile at least once today.
